Is It Almost June?!

 Hello again everyone, it's already May 21, which means next weekend is Memorial Day weekend in the US, and we are already on the cusp of June...already. I was going to write this yesterday/last night, but I received a REALLY bad energy jolt Thursday morning and it affected me big time since then. But I'm still here, and the only thing I'll say about what happened to me is it could, and I feel should, have happened to me.

Now that that's out of the way, I can go ahead and speak about what I couldn't speak about last week, and that is what may be happening in the immediate future. The other week, my family was informed that a cousin of ours in North Carolina has prostate cancer. That means that the middle sister of mine, who lives with me, may have to travel up to NC to help out the youngest of my sisters for an indefinite amount of time, and that means I'm stuck in Florida with my eldest sister, and that means any and all plans I may have made for summer will be wiped away. Which really sucks because there were a few places I wanted to visit on my own later this summer. Like can I get a freaking break with my life?! I've spent the majority of the last five years either recovering from my stroke or frigging COVID (which is not over by a long shot, by the way) and I want to go back to how my life was BEFORE my stroke, if that's even possible.

How rude of computer to shut off on me when I only had this window and FadeFM open.

This week's top 40 flashback takes us back to 1998, when I was 24 and 60 days out from getting discharged from the Navy. I won't give little anecdotes about the songs like I do from earlier countdowns because in Norfolk, Virginia at that time you had to listen to three or four different stations to get the full scope of popular music. Anyway, here were the top 40 songs per Radio & Records magazine for this date in 1998:

40. The Boy Is Mine by Brandy and Monica
39. My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion
38. Stop by Spice Girls
37. Time Ago by Black Lab
36. Never Ever by All Saints
35. I Get Lonely by Janet Jackson
34. Nice And Slow by Usher
33. Zoot Suit Riot by Cherry Poppin' Daddies
32. Have Fun, Go Mad by Blair
31. Kiss The Rain by Billie Myers

30. Real World by Matchbox 20
29. Sin So Well by Rebekah
28. No, No, No by Destiny's Child
27. Me by Paula Cole
26. Adia by Sarah McLachlan
25. I'll Be by Edwin McCain
24. Frozen by Madonna
23. This Is How We Party by S.O.A.P.
22. Heroes by Wallflowers
21. Kind & Generous by Natalie Merchant

20. How's It Going To Be by Third Eye Blind
19. Too Close by Next
18. Do You Really Want Me by Robyn
17. Ray Of Light by Madonna
16. Together Again by Janet Jackson
15. My All by Mariah Carey
14. Iris by Goo Goo Dolls
13. Searchin' My Soul by Vonda Shepard
12. The Way by Fastball
11. Everybody (Backstreet's Back) by Backstreet Boys

10. 3AM by Matchbox 20
  9. Gettin' Jiggy Wit' It by Will Smith
  8. Anytime by Brian McKnight
  7. I Want You Back by *NSync
  6. Truly Madly Deeply by Savage Garden
  5. You're Still The One by Shania Twain
  4. Uninvited by Alanis Morissette
  3. Sex And Candy by Marcy Playground
  2. All My Life by K-Ci and JoJo

and the number one song on this date 24 years ago was...

  1. Torn by Natalie Imbruglia

You know I was doing some thinking the other day, about the stuff I've missed out on in my life. I missed both proms because essentially my father was a cheap-ass stick in the mud. I missed the birth of my daughter because I was new at my job at the Post Office and couldn't take leave. I missed Y2K because I had to work. I think I've been kissed only once to ring in the new year, and she was seeing someone! The one homecoming dance at Apopka I went to, I contracted laryngitis. Countless Halloweens and other occasions, and did I mention the fiasco that was my 40th birthday? Got taken to some Dollar Store dinner theater in the touristy part of Orlando by my drunken ex-sister-in-law and her lush of a daughter in law who tried to interrupt the damn show. God I was embarrassed. So, what's the point I'm getting at? I feel I deserve much much better than what life has dealt me. I mean, just look at this year alone. Just go back and look at my earlier entries on this blog. By the end of this year, I swore to be in a relationship and be madly in love with a woman. I thought I had it in February, but it was taken away from me. Now I have to start over again and quite frankly it's getting old. 

Well, enough voicing my frustrations for this week, I have wrestling to catch up on and wondering what I'm going to write about this week. Until then, have a good one. 

CT